「物質和精神是一性的」 — 口述歷史《靜水流深》第28集發布感言

被「轉化」以後,我用了整整十六個月才看清楚,自己當初是如何走到那一步的。也許,對未修煉過法輪功的朋友們來說,這部分「理論」有點太繞,有點雲裏霧裏不知所云。

但是,對於一個修煉者來說,這是非常重要的一步。

哲學界有個千百年來都沒有爭論清楚的問題:是物質決定意識,還是意識決定物質?

所以,當我首次在《 轉法輪 》中看到李洪志先生舉重若輕地說「其實我告訴大家,物質和精神是一性的」時,心裏感到震撼不已,差一點要大聲叫出來:天哪,原來是這樣!

是的,「物質和精神是一性的」,所以對於修煉人來說,對於宇宙法理的認識與自己的層次、功力,生命的境界和自己能夠達到的「能量級別」是一致的、統一的。拿《轉法輪》中的話來說,就是「心性多高功多高,這是個絕對的真理。」

因此,對於一個修煉人來說,也許重要的並不是從不犯錯(事實上從不犯錯的修煉人可能也不存在,只是錯有大小而已),而是犯過錯以後,你從中悟到了什麼?

《轉法輪》說:「在常人中放不下的心,都得讓你放下。所有的執著心,只要你有,就得在各種環境中把它磨掉。讓你摔跟頭,從中悟道,就是這樣修煉過來的。」

從這個意思上說,摔跟頭不要緊,能不能悟道,才是關鍵。摔摔打打、跌跌撞撞一路走來,這就是修煉的過程。

然而,我們這一批人所經歷的那種慘烈,已經超過了正常情況下,修煉人所應該經受的,已經不是什麼摔摔打打的事了。這是「明目張膽」的要毀滅我們,邪魔才安排了這樣瘋狂。

所以我才說,不能承認這樣的邪惡,願未來的光明世界中,這樣的慘烈永遠不要出現。

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口述歷史:《靜水流深》(28)勞教血淚之轉化篇:自欺欺人……

我的心一下子沉下去,惱喪得恨不能一頭撞死:她們真的算我「沒『轉化』」!我已經將原則出賣得不能再出賣了,搞了半天還算我個「沒『轉化』」!

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我爲何選擇將自己「裸體」示衆 — 口述歷史《靜水流深》第27集發布感言

終於又出新的了。這次是更新得最慢的一次。也許下意識中,我不想講述這部分的故事,因爲那是我歷經「輝煌」和喜悅後,可恥而羞辱的痛苦一頁……

然而,這就是歷史的真實。就像「醜媳婦總要見公婆」一樣,我無法迴避,除非我選擇完全不講述我的故事。

許多與我有過同樣經歷的修煉人,就選擇了對此部分三緘其口吧。畢竟,誰願意公佈自己最醜陋的部分?

然而,這部分,正是這迫害中邪惡、最殘酷、最慘烈的部分。古今中外,最大的迫害就是把人的肉身消滅了;只有中共的「轉化」,消滅的是人的精神、人的信仰、人的尊嚴、人的思想、人的心智、人的自由意志,和人之所以爲人的最根本的東西,將人轉化爲「非人」,從此從肉體到精神徹底地、永遠地毀滅一個人,一個生命。

這種慘烈和痛苦,只有受害人,和親眼見過受害人慘狀的人才知道。

我在經歷過烈火焚身的大痛大悔大悟後,選擇將自己「裸體示衆」一般,將真實的內心展現給我的觀衆和讀者,展現給這個世界,正是爲了讓人類知道:我們曾經經歷過這樣的黑暗和慘烈。

願未來的光明世界中,這樣的慘烈和邪惡,永不再發生。

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口述歷史:《靜水流深》(27)勞教血淚之轉化篇:走向深淵……

我走在樓道裡,步履比鉛還重,心裡是一萬個一億個不願意。雖然我還沒有打算說別的,但我騙不了自己:我在走向哪裡?我生命的永遠將走向哪裡?我 這樣做究竟最終是破壞、侮辱法輪功的成分居多,還是能起起到的正面作用居多?我出去後能否做成我想做的?……種種問題的答案,我一概不知。我感覺不是走在 樓道裡,而是在萬丈懸崖間走鋼絲,隨時都會掉下去,摔個粉碎。 我咬著牙昧著心,一步一步走下去。

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口述歷史:《靜水流深》(26)勞教血淚篇之危險時刻:死裏逃生的那一天……

這時我已知道她們在叫囂什麼並不重要,真正的戰斗正發生在別的空間。在那裡,操縱著這些人的邪魔正與我的性靈決一死戰,它們的利器就是它的魔性,它們的戰術便是發了瘋似的尋找我心中有無可下手的漏。

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Epidemiological Survey: Big Data Reveals Astonishing “Lifestyle” of Man in China

Hello, everyone, welcome to “ Inconvenient Truths”. I am your host Jennifer Zeng.

Today I will talk about a very serious issue not in China, but in the US, that is, High-tech totalitarianism, and how it is harming our society. Then I will talk about how and why the hearts of millions of Chinese netizens were broken by a boring, but detailed “epidemiological survey” conducted through big data. I am sure you will be very surprised too.

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China Reports 8.1% GDP Growth, but Rushes to Cut Interest. Why? Chinese People Start to Fight Back Against the Lockdown

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This week the CCP announced a healthy-looking GDP growth rate for last year, but immediately followed it with two interest cuts that are usually adopted to stimulate the economy when it is not doing well. Why? And why did the deputy governor of China’s central bank say that “the saddest thing is the death of people’s hearts”? I will talk about these issues first. And then I will show you several videos from today showing that Chinese people have started to fight back against the lockdown. So please make sure you stick around till the end.

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This week the CCP announced a healthy-looking GDP growth rate for last year, but immediately followed it with two interest cuts that are usually adopted to stimulate the economy when it is not doing well. Why? And why did the deputy governor of China’s central bank say that “the saddest thing is the death of people’s hearts”? I will talk about these issues first. And then I will show you several videos from today showing that Chinese people have started to fight back against the lockdown. So please make sure you stick around till the end.

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Beijing Winter Olympics May Force the CCP to Admit Failure in its Zero-COVID Policy

Hello, everyone, welcome to “ Inconvenient Truths”. I am your host Jennifer Zeng.

Today I will show you some videos from different cities in China first, and do some updates on the situation in those places. Then I will talk about how the Beijing Winter Olympics could become a double failure for the CCP, as well as a grave security concern for anyone who is going to attend the games. And lastly, I’d like to respond to a comment left on my show yesterday. So Please make sure you stick around till the end.

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解放軍國防大學教授以核戰威脅美國 PLA Colonel Threatens Nuclear War with U.S.

(Jennifer’s note: The following is the transcript of a speech made by Fang Bing, Military instructor and professor at the National Defense University of PLA, Senior Colonel Regular guest of CCTV’s Military Channel. It is not clear when the speech was made.)

(曾錚注:以下爲中共國防大學教授、軍事教官、国防大学原战役教研部军训教研室主任、央視軍事頻道常客房兵講話的文字內容。講話時間不詳。)

What is the current situation in China? What is the strength of the current Chinese People’s Liberation Army?

現在中國什麼光景啊?現在的中國人民解放軍什麼實力啊?

When the current Chinese leaders, whether under the leadership of Chairman Jiang, or the current leadership of Chairman Hu, or the future Chinese leaders, keep saying that on the issue of the unification of our motherland, and for this issue, China will do whatever it takes. What does it mean when such a country says whatever it takes? Anyone on this planet can afford to not understand this, but the Americans must understand it.

當現在的中國領導人,無論是江主席領導集體,還是現在胡主席的領導集體,還是未來的中國領導人,在不斷的,在祖國統一這個問題上,講出這樣一句話的時候,爲了這個問題,我們中國將不惜一切代價的時候,這樣一個國家講出不惜一切代價的話,意味著什麼?

They must know what it will mean once the US meddles with this issue again. China now, let me be frank on this and stretch it a little bit, China is qualified to go back to the Stone Age together with America.

這個地球上誰都可以聽不懂,但美國人一定是聽得懂的。他一定知道,他一旦再度進入將意味著什麼。

We can now go out, slap the table and say to the Americans, “You give up 200 cities of yours, we give up 200 cities of ours, do you dare to play this game (with us)? “

現在的中國,說句不好聽的話,再說句過頭一點的話,是有資格跟美國人一起拉著手回去,回到石器時代的國家。我們現在出去跟美國人拍著桌子講,你的200個城市不要了,我的200個城市不要了,你敢不敢玩?

We are a country that dares to say such a thing. It is definitely not true, it is definitely a threat, but there are not many countries on this earth that are qualified to make such a threat.

我們是可以敢講這樣的話的國家,這話絕對不是真的,肯定是威脅,但是有資格這樣威脅的國家,在這個地球上沒幾個。

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魔幻時代 An Era of “Fantasy”

Since the first moment of the outbreak of the CCP virus, I have been desperately trying to alert the world by tweeting and sharing in English all sorts of information about it on social media platforms.

自中共病毒爆發的第一時間起,我就在社交媒體上用英文拼命轉發各種消息,想提醒全世界注意。

Since then, it seems that reporting about the COVID19 has become my “profession”, and I have been talking about it every day, every week, and every month.

自那以後,報導疫情,似乎成了我的「專業」,我天天說,日日說,月月說,也不知道說過多少次了。

However, in reality, I felt that the outbreak seems to have nothing to do with me. I moved to a quiet place during the peak of the US outbreak in July 2020. I work from home every day and don’t go out much.

The most “remarkable” epidemic-related thing I have done is to have a test in order to watch a Shen Yun performance not long ago. I was very uncomfortable with my nose being stabbed, so I posted on social media and complained a little.

可是,在現實生活中,它卻好像一直跟我無關,跟我無緣。我在2020年7月美國疫情的高峯中搬到了鄉下,每天在家工作,也不大出門,做過的最「了不起」的與疫情相關的事情,是前不久爲了去看 神韻 演出,而做過一次病毒檢測。鼻子被捅很不舒服,就到社交媒體上發了個貼,小小的抱怨了一把。

However, a “little thing” that happened today suddenly gave me a “sense of reality” about the virus, and for the first time, I really felt that we are actually living in a time of “fantasy”.

然而,今天發生的一件「小事」,卻突然讓我對這病毒有了「現實感」,同時第一次真切的感覺到,我們是實實在在生活在一個魔幻時代了。

Yesterday, I agreed with my ex-roommate that I would pick up something from her house today. I thought I hadn’t seen her for a long time, so I’d like to chat with her a little, and perhaps “blackmail” her into treating me to lunch. She cooks very well and has given me the “privilege” to go to her place anytime I want for a meal treatment.

昨天跟前室友說好,今天到她家拿東西。我心想好久不見了,正好聊聊,最好還能蹭頓飯吃。她之前說過,給我「特權」,讓我隨時可以去她那裏「蹭飯」。

This morning, she suddenly sent a text message saying that her whole family was infected and that everyone was running a fever last week. The last two days things were better, but she still has a cough, so it’s best that we don’t meet each other. She said she would leave my things at the door, so I could go get them anytime.

今早她卻突然發短信說,她們全家都感染了,前些天大家都在發燒。這兩天雖然好了,但她還是有些咳嗽,所以最好別見面了。她會把我要拿的東西放在門口,我可以隨時去拿。

Later she called me and said that she had saved a lot of paper boxes and asked if I wanted them. Her house doesn’t have a fireplace and my house does. She knew that I burn the fireplace from time to time, so I might want to have those boxes.

後來她又打電話問我,說她攢了很多紙盒子,問我要不要。因爲她家沒壁爐,我家有。她知道我時不時燒壁爐玩,所以用得上紙盒子。

I said yes and then drove to her house. When I arrived, I saw that she had stacked a pile of paper boxes and put them outside the garage, with the things I wanted on top of the boxes.

我說要,然後就開車去了她家。到的時候,果然看見她已經把一大摞紙盒子堆上車庫外,上面放著我要拿的東西。

I called her to thank her, put the boxes in my car, and drove away without seeing her.

我給她打電話謝了她,把紙盒搬上車,沒見她面,就這樣開車走了。

When I got home and moved the boxes to the fireplace, I remembered that when she and her daughter lived at my place, they used to play with the fire in front of the fireplace and roast lamb and sweet potatoes over the fire in the fireplace, and we all enjoyed them happily.

回到家,把紙盒往壁爐那裏搬,想起她和女兒住我這裏的時候,她們也經常在壁爐前燒火玩,還用壁爐裏的火烤羊肉、烤紅薯,大家高高興興吃做一團。

But today, I came back from her house without seeing her. The entire thing feels so unreal to me, and somehow suddenly touched my “pain point” so unexpectedly.

Then I thought to myself, I just hadn’t seen my friend, and it already hurts so much, how about those who had lost their loved ones?

今天就這麼面也沒見上就回來了,讓我覺得真是魔幻。所謂疫情,也就這麼猝不及防的觸到了我的「痛點」 — 我只不過沒見上朋友面,就已經這麼「痛」了,那些失去親人的,又該情何以堪?

In this era of “fantasy”, everything is changing so rapidly. Can we go back to our “normal” time? What more magical “fantasies” are waiting for us ahead?

魔幻的時代,一切都在快速變化中。我們還能回到從前嗎?前面又還有什麼更加魔幻的事情在等待著我們?

I had always thought that I was very sober and rational. But today for some reason, I suddenly felt that my heart is so vulnerable and sad. I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, but I don’t know how long this tunnel is, and how many more lives will be swallowed by the darkness.

我自認一直是很超脫、很清醒、很理智的,今天不知爲何,卻突然柔軟傷感了起來。我知道光明終將重現,然後我卻不知道,我們還要在黑暗中「魔幻」多久,又還會有多少人,會被這黑暗吞噬。

Today, I saw and tweeted a video of a man who lives in a locked-down community in China sobbing and begging the epidemic prevention officers to allow him to take his family out to see a doctor. I couldn’t help but burst into tears too. In this time of “fantasy”, under the clutches of the Chinese Communist Party, how worthless life is, and how difficult it is to live. This is really heartbreaking.

今天看到網上一個在中共國被「封控」的男子泣不成聲地下跪哀求防疫人員允許他帶家人出去 看病的視頻 ,不由得也流下淚來。在魔幻的時代,在中共的魔爪之下,生命是多麼卑微,活著是多麼不易,真是讓人痛徹心扉。

On this snowy night, I am incapable of writing any bright or inspiring words. However, I still want to write this short essay as a record of this era of “fantasy” we are living in.

在這個下雪的晚上,我已寫不出鼓舞人心的字句,但還是想寫下這篇短文,以紀念我們所生活的這個魔幻時代。

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